Because of you.

Last time I saw you, I really thought it would be the last time. But I guess it wasn’t.
 I haven’t seen you in person since that day, but I kind of wish I saw you in person instead of the way I’m seeing you now. 

Now I see you every time I close my eyes. Every night I see you like you were just in front of me. I’m trying to run a way and hide, but you always find a way to find me and catch me.
But in real life I could just have called someone to pick me up. 
But it’s not how it is.

I see you the second I close my eyes at night. 
No place to hide and it’s almost impossible for me to open my eyes or wake up. 
I have to look at you again. 

Being able to look in to your blue eyes again, gives me chills. Being able to smell your deodorant again, makes me sick. Being able to feel your cold hands, makes me scream. 
But screaming doesn’t even matter because no one can hear me. It’s all in my head. 

And yes, I know it’s just my head messing with me, but it’s so real that it feels like I’m back at that place once again. 
And because of you, I have do deal with this ever time I close my eyes. 

// Sarah Katrine

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