You are my star.

I’m laying in bed a night with tears rolling down my cheeks.

I close my eyes and all the sudden I can see you, just like if you were standing in front of me. I can smell your perfume and feel your arms wrapped around me. I can feel your heart beat against my cheek. It feels safe.

I open my eyes and I look at the sky.

“Can you see that star over there, Sarah? It’s your star and when I’m no longer here, I’ll be on the star. I’ll watch you from above. I’ll see you grow up, I’ll see you fighting for your dreams, I’ll see you smile.”

I look for the star but I can’t find it, so I close my eyes and and pray for it to be there when I open them again.

I’ll pray for you to be there.

“Please be there when I open my eyes. I need you.” Tears keep rolling and my entire body is shaking.

I open my eyes and start looking for the star once again. And finally – I can see it. I can see you.

No more tears and a smile appears on my lips again. I feel safe. I know you’re with me.

I miss you, but I know I’ll see you again. But until then, I know where to look when everything is falling apart and I know where to look when I don’t feel safe.

Maybe I’ll see you again tomorrow?